The day had finally come. I was to marry Benjamin Long in just thirty minutes, and here I sat alone in my bedroom with the radio on.

I had always envisioned my mother with me on my big day -even if she always was hard to tolerate- because well, she was my mom. She'd help me into my dress and tell me that every knot in my stomach was just the normal nerves, and not any reason to stop the wedding. I could definately use someone to tell me just that. Anything was better than sitting on my bed counting down the minutes.

I was barely breathing when the radio caught my attention, a new song beginning. I felt a strong tug in my heart, and I exhaled sharply.


The words really spoke to me, digging down deep into my very being. A soft gasp escaped my lips as I closed my eyes, and images of my past flooded into my mind. I could feel myself slipping into yesterday; I could smell the flowers, and feel the breeze brush past my hair. And there he was, looking at me like I was the only one in the world.








My eyes snapped open and I choked on my breath. I quickly looked around the room, and wondered how my life would have been different if... well, things didn't happen the way they did.

"I'm so sorry," I whispered into the air around me. He would never hear it I knew, but it needed to be said. Because I truly was sorry.


I lifted myself off the edge of the bed and walked to the mirror. Staring at my reflection I sighed and shook my head.

"Am I doing the right thing?" I asked myself, studying my eyes for a sign. "What if Ben isn't who I'm meant to be with?" I groaned at the last question and scowled at my image.


"Oh shut up, Aimee!" I cried, dropping my head against the reflective glass. "Just marry him, you love him! The past is the past; it's done!"


Still, I saw him in the back of my mind, wrapping his arms around me as I cried hysterically. I had made the decision then, but now... now I was marrying some guy I met a month ago?

Don't think like that! Your mother would be right then... and that just simply can not be!

I shook the image away from my mind, and looked at the mirror one last time.


"It's almost time hun," I said to myself, forcing a smile. "He's waiting for you -they're all waiting."

I walked across the room and glanced out the window.


Girl, this is it. Your life starts now.

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[Lyrics in intro: Goodbye My Lover - James Blunt]